clinically insane

i cant seem to make anything go right anymore. why do i have these problems and no one there for me. i hate my life right now. ugh. its so horrible but only right now. everythings changing and no one understands or even cares and im left all alone in the dark and im really scared. but no one see that no matter how many times i tell them. everything was going great then all of a sudden everything went bad really quickly and i cant get any one to understand what im going through at this moment and the one person i did have to turn to has decided they needed me out of there life for a time and i dont know how long that will be. im running around in circles freaking out all the time i cant even control myself anymore doing stupid shit. for no reason. i dont get it. i want everything to be good again. i have literally been going insane on and off for the past 3 days i cant control it. i need to fix it though. but i just feel so lost in this world and dont know what im doing. i dont understand either im a really emotional person and thats a hard quality to find nowadays especially in men. yet that is what keeps getting me into trouble. im like schizing right now as i type this. im so worried about everything in my life. this is my call for help i need someone to come save me. this is my message in a bottle. i want to fix my problems but i cant do it alone and right now it seems as if the worlds wants me to fail. butterfly i hope you read this. when i say i need you i really do, maybe you dont need me but i do. please come save me from this misery.