too fast

why do all good things have to be followed by bad things. why when everything seems so right does everything have to turn for the worst? when you have something you should never let go of it, but then if you try to hard to keep that thing you end up losing it. you'd think that by being as best you can be then they will appreciate that and understand how much you actually care. but they always end up getting annoyed or confused and you get hurt, extremely hurt everytime. why can't the best things always be the things that stay with us instead of being the things that hurt us most. i dont understand life sometimes other than the fact that life is meant to live, but what about when your not happy with life then your not really living are you. so in essence you are dead. that cannot be a good thing.