deep?

some one said that i was deep. could that be possible. maybe im just a fuck up and thats why it seems like that. i care too fucking much about every fucking thing. i make myself so depressed that i dont want to live. but i cant help it. i cant control it. and no one understands i hate being me when all i feel is misery. and no one seems to really give a shit
i am alone in this world and it seems i wont ever have anyone. my heart has been through so kmuch pain already. and im fuckin up otherr peoples lives. they dont need to bother with how i feel. i know i could never have them i have always known that why i love tham anyone i just cant understand i really think somethings wrong with me. a grown man should not cry especially at all the things that i dream about. i am a loser here on earth with a message to the youth love is wonderful but can be too much. its how i ended up fucking up. so dont end up just like me with everyone who loves you wont ever really love you. its all a lie its all a dream and this cant be reality i can no longer fight this war for love . i must remain doormant and reclusive and hide from everyone. because if i try to explain myself no one will understand i am a fool just like you. with no one to hold my hand.