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hello world

hello world,

it was nice to hear from you the other day. i am glad to hear mother nature has been treating you well. i am sorry that your aunt hilda didnt understand why genocide happens, its not your fault. its getting colder here everyday. no one knows when it will stop. why are hurricanes coming and coming, it seems this year that more people have been killed by hurricanes this year that any other. i was talking to father the other day and he said that we could use a good snow this year here in houston if you could allow for that. i hope to see you this christmas at the family reunion. how has father christmas been anyways. well anyways i hope you have been very well. tell grandfather jesus i said hello. hope to see you soon world.
love always
your best cousin
dog

shows

well as i have told all of you before i had never been to a concert before. well that changed all of a sudden thanks to one beautiful lady and her lovely mother. so i have now decided to start a list of shows i have been too as well as a little bit of info about each one.

1. Greenday : awesomely awesome my first concert ever, what an experience!
2. Ozzfest : i saw Arch Enemy, Rob Zombie (my first crowd surfing experience), Black Label Society(omg zakk wylde), Shadows Fall, Mudvayne, Velvet Revolver (scott weiland rocked house, slash kicked ass, duff mckagan ruled), and last but not ever least BLACK SABBATH!! ( ozzie osbourne, geezer butler, tony iomi. those three guys changed music forever and i got to see them live that probably won't happen for much longer)
3. 311,unwritten law, and papa roach: awesome concert, i went for papa roach and unwritten law but i left with 311 in my heart. turns out 311 kicks balls live, boy did they put on a show. amazing!!
4. wezzer & foo fighters: yet another amazingly awesome concert. weezer was wonderful. foo fighters ruled that show though. dave grohl was bad ass. he throws a hell of a show and he was drunk ha.
5. buzzfest: i saw cold, nickelback,audioslave, coheed and cambria, fall out boy, 10 years, and many more. this fest rocked more than any of the others,all i have to say is go see a show rollin, ha. triple stack red scorpions.
6. REHAB concert. yay! what a great easter, rehab was probably the most energetic show ive seen. they rocked balls. the opening band was called the rasta rock remedy, they were of notoriety they were a reggaeish funky type of band, i enjoyed them.

always screwed

looks like im screwed again but i think my life is changing for the more mature and more focused towards my dreams. women apparently will never accept me until i find one that is accepting and right for me. sucks balls though. to know that every girlfriend i ever had or have will end up crushing me and screwing me over until i find the ONE. well i guess thats life. i hate how people lead you on to. its like they break up with you and tell you youll get back together with no intention of ever doing so even if they think you will. anyways im on with my quest to find love passion music peace and prosperity. in this life it might be hard at times but one day the world will know exactly who i am and what i stand for until then i strive and work towards that goal, and hopefully along the way ill influence peoples lives and hopefully break through to some of them. anyways im here to spread my word my music my passion to everyone. stick along for the ride!

let go

its time to let go
get on with my life
been twisted and puuled
wrapped up so tight
gasping and grasping
and choking for air
it seems nobody even cares.

i was smothered
by a girl
who i loved
she ripped out my heart
just because
she liked me for awhile
then she got bored
and i was just a little whore

im moving on
getting better
no help from you
though i asked
and you threw it back at me
guess i fucked up. ha.

you messed up the best thing you could have
im telling you straight form the heart
youll never meet someone who cares like i do
someone who really likes YOU
im am the guiy that i told you i was
and back then you seemed to love it
you told me i was yours and you were mine
then you left me far behind.

too fast

why do all good things have to be followed by bad things. why when everything seems so right does everything have to turn for the worst? when you have something you should never let go of it, but then if you try to hard to keep that thing you end up losing it. you'd think that by being as best you can be then they will appreciate that and understand how much you actually care. but they always end up getting annoyed or confused and you get hurt, extremely hurt everytime. why can't the best things always be the things that stay with us instead of being the things that hurt us most. i dont understand life sometimes other than the fact that life is meant to live, but what about when your not happy with life then your not really living are you. so in essence you are dead. that cannot be a good thing.

clinically insane

i cant seem to make anything go right anymore. why do i have these problems and no one there for me. i hate my life right now. ugh. its so horrible but only right now. everythings changing and no one understands or even cares and im left all alone in the dark and im really scared. but no one see that no matter how many times i tell them. everything was going great then all of a sudden everything went bad really quickly and i cant get any one to understand what im going through at this moment and the one person i did have to turn to has decided they needed me out of there life for a time and i dont know how long that will be. im running around in circles freaking out all the time i cant even control myself anymore doing stupid shit. for no reason. i dont get it. i want everything to be good again. i have literally been going insane on and off for the past 3 days i cant control it. i need to fix it though. but i just feel so lost in this world and dont know what im doing. i dont understand either im a really emotional person and thats a hard quality to find nowadays especially in men. yet that is what keeps getting me into trouble. im like schizing right now as i type this. im so worried about everything in my life. this is my call for help i need someone to come save me. this is my message in a bottle. i want to fix my problems but i cant do it alone and right now it seems as if the worlds wants me to fail. butterfly i hope you read this. when i say i need you i really do, maybe you dont need me but i do. please come save me from this misery.

hierarchy

you and me
were meant to be
the king and queen of society

you and me
were meant to be
the jack and jill of our liberty

you and me
will we be
everything that we said we need

you and me
will we be
anything we didnt want to be